Sti|| hOpinG f0r a m|rcalE t0 c0m3 tru3.

2006-06-17T02:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really felt lonely .
I dunno why .
But jus have this funny feelings within me yeahh .
Sighh . i try to play games all day tryin hard.
Jus make myself not tinkin too much abt the past .
Yet i fail .
Sighh . I jus didn't know how.
Wat i could do .
How i wish time could stop .
I jus could hold back my tears back .
In those lonely nights .
I tot of lots of things .
Dunno what i shud do yeahh .
All i know was .
I feel terrible .
Very terrible .

EndlessTearZ - sumtimes i really wish tat i was not born . help mi :( .

2006-06-11T01:58:00.000+08:00

All i hope for this year .
All i ask for jus to be more luck ?
And things to be better alright .
lala . Jus wonder why so unlucky always .
There's nothing i do tat goes smooth .
How saddist .
Am i thinkin too much ?
Sumtimes i think so .
But most of the time i think it's so dam true .
What to do .
I seems so lyk crused ?
Hopefully bahz .
Things to change .
For the better .
lala .

Jus a unlucky n crused no life brat . - ; nx .

2006-06-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

Sumtimes i wish i could be a hero
lyk Wolverine to be able to fight .
Protect my love ones by my side .
World is evil . hais

2006-06-02T09:44:00.000+08:00

I am thinkin since when .
I change so much .
Not as darin as ever .
And there's been so many fear in life .
Life used to be fearless .
Nothing to be afraid of .
But now it's jus different .
The rage withiin is no more i guess ?
The fire isn't there anymore .
I wan back .
I wan Things to Turn back lyk before .

2006-05-29T13:46:00.000+08:00

I jus can't understand why .
Why ppl jus lyk to said abt others .
But they can't jus firstly look at themself before saidin others .
Well, no1 is perfect in this world .
They talk as if every1 has to be perfect .
Can't jus look at urself ?

EndlessTearZ -

2006-05-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

I guess i been a fool all these times .
Makin wrong decisions .
Even though i have waken up from my dream .
It's already too late .
Things have change totally .
No way to turn things another way round .
I regret .
I Feel lyk tell u my thoughts .
What i felt .
How i wish i could .
Be more sure of my feelings .
Instead of takin such a long time considering it .
Sighz .
I guess nothing matters to u anymore .
All i know now is tat least u are happy .

Ppl said things can nv be too late .
As long as u realise ur mistakes .
And the learn the lesson .
But this is case of mine .
I guess it's totally impossible to said tat it's not too late .
Sighh .

Only have a responsibility tat is to Study hard .
And pass my o's lvl wif flyin colours .
And Get to poly .
I have put down everyting else n concentrate .
Wish me gd luck .
I pray hard that i will sucess this time .
If not , who knows how life will turn out next .

2006-05-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

Have been always thinking y life turn out liddat .
Always asking myself .
I wish i had answer to all these .

I reach my hands out .
Always hoping that .
Some1 would offer to give my hand a grab .
To get me out of this mess .
Yet always there's none .

I always thought that i am so strong .
And will be able to take it .
And struggle my ways through .
But i was wrong until this day come .
This day where everyting turn out to be so terrible for mi .
That there is totally no way for me to be able to turnback .

DesTinY . I am rottingg offf . To me Life's A Struggle .

2006-04-21T19:43:00.000+08:00

U used to mine lucky star yet.
I didn't know .
U pull me up when i go down .
But i guess now i am sinkin .
Really deep yet nothing can be done .

EndlessTearZ - how sway can my life get ?

2006-04-18T15:38:00.000+08:00

If only i could .
Be a little smarter n luckier .
Perharps things will nv turn out liddat .
Life won't be so shitty .
Lyk a shit struck in my face .
Life wouldn't have turn out lyk this too .
My heart is sinkin deeper n deeper .
I am still tryin hard to hold back my tears .
Perharps it's all fated to be .
I have a bad feeling .
My life gotta to turn out lyk my father's .
How i wiish wat went wrong in my life .
Sum how i felt lyk givin up .
Givin entirely everything .

Regrets are the last thing .
U wiish to have in ur life ..

EndlessTearZ - I wonder what went wrong .

2006-04-03T18:19:00.000+08:00

Mayb tears won't stop falling until the day things turn back normal .
But it's impossible .
I dunno how long more i could take .
How i wiish u were here .
Lyk ever before .
I regret .
Jus a simple decision which it all leads a mess of me now .
Nv ever felt lost lyk bfore . sighz. fuk it all .
How i wiish time could jus turn backk .
Back to where it all started .
Promises were nv meant to be kept .
I jus could forget it .
I jus a nothing now .
Reality really scuks.
Sometimes it hurts too .

EndlessTearZ - Scarifices weren't worth much at all . What's the use of sparing a thought for others .

2006-03-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

There's nothing to hold on to .
A decision is to be made .
Perharps i was luckily the first time .
But not this time .
I gave it all up .
Perharps gave it all up long ago .
When it's time to let go , let it go .
I have to .
Struggling hard were no use .
I am drowning down . real deep .

Days were no long the same .
Time to study hard .
I wan to build up my body = D
Before ns starts . Lala .

EndlessTearZ - There's nothing i can cling on . I jus wan a rest . -

2006-03-29T06:23:00.000+08:00

All i know is my moviation is gone .
Things are history .
Almost it all .
I guess it had all ended .
Time for a new start .
At last .?
lala .
No moviate . no point .
But still life goes on lala .
What's the use .

EndlessTearZ - EveryTing is now left behind i guess ..

2006-03-22T14:41:00.000+08:00

God seems to be makin fun out of me .
Each time i am tryin hard.
To pick myself once again .
He jus had to shatter away my hope.
I not sure how long more i am able hold on.
My life tearin apart .
I dunno what i could do now .
Even if how i great i am on net .
In reality, i am jus nothing .
I wondering always .
When will this shit end ?
SiGh . fcuk up life + a fcuk up mii in a fcuk up world .
One thing for sure . i goin crazy . goin nuts .
I see no hope .
Save me .

EndlessTearZ - Life's a struggle .

2006-03-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

I have already grown up yeahh?
Shouldn't be think much anymore nonsense yea?
What's gone is gone .
I guess i jus have to learn to let go .
lala ` it's hard but i try .
I always console ppl this n that .
But i can't overcome all these myself .
I know i lost it all .
Boo . all gone jus in mins .
But guess life can't go on anymore liddat yea ?
It's time for a change ?
I should be behavin lyk a grown up .
no more break downs.
No more nonsense .
STOP yeahh . Said Bye BYe to my past. = ( .
I am burying u UP = ) lala `.

EndlessTearZ - i had to stay strong enough . lala `.sighz . 160406 .farewell . BBOO .

2006-03-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

These days i been think .
Thinking n thinking .
I wan put it a stop .
My head hurst n i am tired .
There's jus so much in life to decide for .
A decision have to be made soon or later .
Before it's too late .
I knew i had already end up back to the same place .
I knew it's jus impossible to be able to make a process .
All i know i am tired right now .
I trying to break free .

EnDlEsS TEarZ - fukkk up .

2006-03-08T06:22:00.000+08:00

I wan u back .
Least i know u wouldn't treat me this way .
It's enough .
I don care abt others stuffs .

EndlessTearZ -

2006-02-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

Some i felt i owe u much.
So much u done for me.
I jus wan to say
I am SORRY .

EndlessTearZ -

2006-02-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

Somehow i feel i was wrong .
But totally ain't my fault yeah .
I jus didn't realise it all .
I guess it's was too much for u to .
To take twice the pain .
Again n Again .
I felt Guilty when i realise .
And it's too late .

2006-02-18T16:25:00.000+08:00

A Wrong Decision which lead to a thousand years of pain .

2006-02-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

I used to have everyting i need in life.
But nv did i .
Knew that i lost it all in such a short time.
No one .
Told me that growing up process.
Was a pain 1 .
I had been wondering.
When will this pain stop aching?
I really dunno what to do.
All these years.
I jus didn't what to do .
All i did was cry.
Crying my heart off.
I wonder if i still could take.
Where was every1.
When i had my most diffcult time in life.
Do even mircale even exist ?
Do even wishes ever come true ?
If it did .
Why does it not exist in my world .
If i had a 2nd choice.
I promise i will not take things.
For granted ever again . haiss .
Will this wound ever heal .. ?

EndlessTearZ - life's full of regrets .

2006-01-16T06:04:00.000+08:00

bOo! long time no blog yeahh .
I suddenly jus wanted to blog . lala`
JIAYAN thanks yeahh .
U were the first to tell me.
How gd i were or how great.
Lala` i jus so touched :))
but summore i jus dun feel i were yeah.
but i knew i nv Regret knowin u :)
You are a great frenz too u know = )

EndlessTearX -

2005-11-04T17:57:00.000+08:00

Sighz.
I guess i jus wasted all my time.
Tryin out.
Tinkin tat tis time history will not repeat itself.
But still it did.
Fcukin fcuked life.
From bad to worst.
Wad am i gotta to do?
I really lostt.

Watched mr fighting.
Tears flow down my face.
Sighz.
I used to be liddat.
To have gd frenz around.
And there for u everytime.
But all these had been historyy.

Wad's gotta happen nxt.?
Sighz i can't imagine.
If onli things could turn backk where once started.
Jus felt as lonely as ever.
I jus can't imagine wad's it is gotta be lyk in future..

I jus stop the tears from flowin.
It's jus too much..
Really too much..
For a kid lyk to take all these.
I don't wan to give up.
What esle could i do other then give up.

I am begin to lose more.
More n more.
Soon everyting will be gone.
Now it's lyk i had nothing left already.
WAd could be worst?
Sighz.

nobody cares anyway.
Seriously i wiish i could go back to past.
And make the right choices.
Do mircales really exist..?
i wonder where's mine.
can't take it anymore.
i need a shoulder to cry on.
no mood to do any stuff
jus gotta make myself rottin at home..

EndlessTearX - life suckks i wiish i had nv been born.

2005-10-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

I am afraid..
I am afraid to get gameover.
I am afraid i will return to the same.
It's not lyk i nv been through it.
But i jus didn't wan to go back there.
I tried hard enough.
But it's was of no use.
SiGhz.

Perharps if i didn't try to change anything.
None of tis would happen.
Maybe from the start i shud leave things the way they are.

Now, i confused n upset.
I wonder if there still hope .

2005-10-15T10:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i thought..
Even one is so stingy n selfish in a game..
Don't even mention how he is lyk in real life..

2005-10-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

The nature of human ..
Will nv change?
I guess it's been the same for every1 expect for some.

This is jus some fuked up world..haiz.
I wonder how i ended up liddat..
Lookin back to things i hadd..

2005-10-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

I felt numb.
Felt hopless.
Nv felt tis way before.
Totally of terrible.
No mood for anyting.
I didn't noe wad to do.
Totally kinda of lost.

I wish i was dead.
I wish u were here.
I wan to go backk.
To the pastt.

The life i lead nw totally horrible.
Totally a world of diseaster.
I am scared.
My hands n body shiverin.

EndlessTearX - i felt my world fallin apart ..

2005-10-06T11:53:00.000+08:00

science..
I didn't score for all those easy questions.
I guess also got alot of mistakes.
Haiz wtf.
Dun even noe if will be able to make it mahh. hopefully cann.
I am worried.

i jus hope i would pass!.
I promise i would work even harder nxt year!
i gotta need to find back my confidence >.<.
Onli way i could achieve wad i wanted i guess.
It's has always been. gotta work hard.

skool day = bookworm
hoildays = Badb0y =Xxxx
Ahhh ccan't wait for hoildays!
pray for miii. for my n lvl! some1!

2005-10-02T18:25:00.000+08:00

Every1 couldn't made it to send mel off.
I wanted to go.
But didn't in the end.
Gotta miss u. >.<
TakE care wor.
Don't forget us when u are there.

Haiz. i miss the past so muchh.
Whitley my skool so interestin.
So many different type of ppl u could find there.
So funny.
I believe one day truth will be out.

An advice in life i always believe in.
Trust no1 expect urself

Been years..
Still i was struck here..
And couldn't find a way out..
I sat in corner..
All i could do was wait..
Wait for a mircale to come true..
A angel to save mii..
Get mii out of tis..

2005-10-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

Jus didn't felt right these few days.
Haiz.
Jus fuked upp i guess.
Ppl always said family are the real ones who will stay ur side.
I guess it was true.
I didn't believe last time.
But i do nw.
Cuz i been through it.
Wad will become of mii?
I worried. already fukedd up.
Will the n lvls be a big blow for mii?
What if it really did?
Wad will i do..?
Haiz.
I felt hopeless. totally hopeless.
I need a pair of helpin hands.
A shoulder too.
Shoulder for mii to rely onn.
I feltt endlesstears burstin out of my eyes.
Haiz.
REally fukedd up.
I felt lyk lettin go everyting.
I jus couldn't take it.
I miss the pastt.
Reallyy..
Sighz.
I jus felt lyk bangin my head on the wall.
Mayb i wouldn't not blog anymoree.
Don't felt lyk anymoree.

FUKED UP. Jus wan to be alone.

2005-10-01T02:39:00.000+08:00

Wad the use of explainin?
My father dun even understandd.
Long hours of studies n yet i play onli a while of game.
He nagg lyk siao.
Haiz.
Not lyk i nv study ritee.
Forget it . fine i would jus stop it.

Fuked up.

2005-09-28T16:39:00.004+08:00

Got back results slip todayy.
Lousyy results i got yea..?
Haiz.
I worried for n lvl.
Wad if i did not make it?
If mircales do happen.
i hope it happen to mii.
I guess the bad luck i had for years was still mii.
My life had nv improve muchh.
Instead it's gettin more n more worst i guess.
Haiz.
When will i able to get rid of it?
I wonderin.
Wonderin those things my parents told mii.
I am tinkin if it is even true.
I startin to tinkin tat it's all lies.
Lies jus to prevent mii from gettin hurt.
But i jus wan to noe the truthh nw.

Where will i end up at?

2005-09-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

Oh oh oh!
MEL I GOTTA MISS U.
4years.
I wonder by then when u come back.
Wad will u become lyk?
Will still remember us?
Hope not.
As for mii .
I not gotta forget u.
Nv forget how u took care of mii lastt time.
ThanksS alott.!!

2005-09-23T15:42:00.000+08:00

If onli life could be lyk fairytale.
It would be so muchh betta.
So much fun n more enjoyable weren't it.

Why do we have to lyk jus born out.
And you will jus have to accept the fate.
The fate of studyin hardd.
You don't have a choice in Singapore.
Studyin is ur future.
Tat's wad makes life so much meaningless,no point of living.

Saw some1 lyk u today.
Or mayb it was u. I dunno.
The sight of u jus makin mii feel betta.
Haiz i unable to forgetful u.
I tried but i still fail.
It's been so long since i last saw u.
Ur smile is so sweet.

Not only did i realise..
I could not forget u..
I jus could get u out of my mind..
Perharps u had always been the movtivation in my life..
Until the day i gave up waiting..
Only did i realise..
I begin to always failing..
To achieve wad i want.
At tat time i realised..

2005-09-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

WAD SHUD I DO?
HAIZ

My life is shattered into pieces..

2005-09-19T14:06:00.000+08:00

Got back results today..
Not gdd at all.
Haiz.
Been lyk 1years + i nv improved in my studies.
I so scared i am not gotta make it for n lvl.
Hopefully i not so careless when n lvl comes.
And i could remember the important things.
I need to study harder.
Hopefully tis time i gotta improve.
I hope..

Where will i up at end of tis year..?haiz.

2005-09-17T21:15:00.002+08:00

My life is already shattered in pieces..
I jus coulddn't forget wad i been through..

2005-09-16T10:17:00.001+08:00

M ath paper 2.
Was suppose to can lyk score high marks de.
But i already lost 9 marks.
Forget a formula.
Plot graph wrongly.
Nv study for two questions then i didnt noe how to do.
Damnit.

Things are not wad they seems to be anymore..
Who knew my feelings..
Why am i always holdin different views from others..
I had to be mentally strong..
I am trying..

2005-09-14T11:46:00.000+08:00

Today science paper.
Physics was easy but chemistry was hard.
Damn though physics was easy.
I make a few silly mistakes at mcq.
Aiya give away marks i nv score>.<>
I got short term memory bahh.
Always study liaoO then forget.

Just need to pray.
all this things won't happen when i take n lvl.

\\ - stress~ // -

I am siick of my blogskiin.
Gotta change blogskin.
Perharps after my preliums.

I am left wif myself to depend on.. // -
Sometimes i jus dun understand.. // -
I am wondering .. // -

2005-09-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

Stupiid firewall.
Make mii dl things from frens in msn so slow.
Onli noe how to off window firewall. the linksys de i dunno=(.
Damnitt.

I am startin to get sick of my blog.
It's doesn't look nice after all.
Wait until i am free.
Gotta find a suitable blog ((:

I look so toot in those fotos took at east coast.>.<
I look lyk ah pek. lala` tat's y i hate takin fotos.
Miss my long hair!
Got none to cover my ugly side liao >.<.

How i wish..
Somethings nv change..

2005-09-11T10:40:00.000+08:00

Damn! i need to be more firece!
Hahas. already not lyk last time.
Wan firece also can't liao.
Also dunno how to scold ppl le.
Hahas. need to train backk my mouth fightin skill back!
LOLs. last timee no1 can out talk mii. haha.
If onli i could remember all the things i always used to scold ppl lols.

lala` can't be soft hearted too oftenn.
Ppl will climb on ur headd.
And u might changed.
And nv knew how to be firece anymore
LOls. so, dun ever be too kind ! = ))

I jus wan be as darin as everr ((:
Kick assholes of otherss HAHA.
Guts were gone! lala`

One who is really darin..
Is not one who always dare to fight wif others..
It's also not even one who dares to face death..
But one who is able to face his/her own true feelings in their heart.

2005-09-09T23:12:00.000+08:00

SCREW DAY!

I getting old liaos.
Kept on forgetting things easily.
Maybe it's not sumting badd.
Might be a help in forgettin unhappy stuffs bahhs.

I always getting things screw.
Perharps stayin at home was betta?
Wells dunno larhh.

2005-09-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

i got my com.
I shud be happy but i didn't felt so.
No internet yett.
If onli ppl could learn to be more responsible.

These few days totally fuked up.
No MORE MR NICE GUY ANYMORE.
I SWEAR.
NO MORE.
I LEARNT MY LESSON.

Wad have i done wrong?
To deserve suchh a life liddatt.
I hate life to the core!
God had always been playin a fool of mii.
I sick of life n everyting even ppl.
I jus couldn't stand it anymore.

Smile..
A smile could have hide it all.
Behind those smiles.
There were endless tears.
Every1 was bein trick by the smile.

2005-09-06T20:01:00.000+08:00

i am wondering..
Where all the guts , confidence..
I ever had gone to..?
Perharps i jus had gone weak.
ii wonderin..
Why did i end up lidddat.
Mayb bein soft hearted.
All the time wasn't a gd option.
Mayb u tink it's a excuse.
So what, i jus couldn't find the reason.
So a excuse was jus ritte to replace it.

I tot i mange to chase back..
Myself.soul.spirit.
But guess wad.
I failed.
I didn't even stand a chance to get close to it.
Instead it got further.
I didn't noe why i end up liddat.
But i jus kneww.
I not myself anymore.
I let myself nw.>.<~

There is jus sum i am lackin of.
Which i usedd to have.
There's sumting missin within mii.

Don't worry i not depress or wad.
I am jus fed up wif myself ((:

Many thoughts runnin through my mind..
Runnin through my mind..
Runnin through my mind..
I jus need sum slient :/

2005-09-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

Studied so muchh.
Yet the first page where i shud score.i didn't
Wasted my time bahh.
Shud take the time to relax or sumting.
Lyk others did?
Mayb still got chance score well bahs.
Hopefully i will.
Need to study hard for other subjects le.
I scare i would get promote.
Another thing .
There wasn't a need to cut my hair.
They didn't check. damnnit.
GOt it all wrongg assumes.

I won't bother anymore.
All could blame n hate for u wans.
I nv could not imagine.

My fate has always been so
Unique.weirdd.funny.diff from others.
Been the odd 1 always.

Ohs yahh thanks for the gd luck msgs.
My primary skool mates .
Sweet of u guys ((:
Lalala i miss primary skool life `

Three more days.
My com will be here.
Don't have to kept usin my sis ones anymore.
Thanks for my mum.
Thanks alot!

My parnter miss short!
Thanks for accompanyin to talk most of the time too!
Ohx thanks for those testis too. ((:
I guess i am beginnin.
To feel lyk wad u feel nw.>.<
So far apart from frens.

Just didn't understand.
Wad others tinks sumtimes.
I am jus wondering.
I don't bother anymore.
Let it be tat way.

2005-09-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

yeahh ppl are judge ur their apperance.
Even if u have the talent as muchh as the others.
You won't have the same amount of chance
You already lost because of ur appearance.
Sad to said yeahh?
Wad's becomin of ppl in tis worldd?

Haha.
I guess was jus hidin behind his/her maskk.
To the different ppl around dem.
They had differents masks.
Sometimes i wonder wad others is tinkin yeahh?
Sum tings jus found it funny.
Really wantedd to ask dem the question.
Wanted to noe the answers to my doubt.
But i guess no point.
I would have cause a fuss out of itt.
But jus couldn't standd it.
Wad are u guys tinkin abt..?
I guess no1 knew wad others are tinkin abt.

The truth.
It's scary? hurting? many more yeahh?
Hahaa. it's come in many forms.
wells it betta to get to heard the truth instead of lies bahh.

So what if takes years n years of waitin.
So what if it wastin my time.
So what if it was nothin in return.
So what if it wasn't worth it.
I asked for it.
Just hangin on wif tis little goal yeahh?
What the point of life wif a goal/ a target?
Tat's y i am still hangin on to it.
Even if it was wastin my time n everyting.
I jus need it as a goal to make myselff feel betta or wad?
So whatt? even if it is.
At least i nv give up on my lifee.
I believe there's still hope bahh.
Hopefully there is.
Otherwise i guess i fallin into the hole.
Maybe ppl might tink i dumb or wad. so wad?
I need a goal.
So i usin tat as a point to make myself go on.

If i wasn't a rascal, i would stand a chance last time don't i..?
Compare to the pastt.
I have changed muchh.

2005-09-02T16:56:00.000+08:00

Had english preliumm.
It's was quite okayy bahh.
I tink my letter writin n summary wrote out of point.?
Mayb bahh who noes anway it's overr.

Got backk term 3 results.
Nv improvedd stay the same i tinkk.
Haiyaa. dunno y ever since sec 2 results dropped lyk siao..?
Juz gotta need to study for n lvl n get promotedd bahh.
Hopefully my hard work pay off at n lvl.

Jus feltt weirdd.
Been long ever since i wentt outt orchard?
Haha. dunno bahh.
Sumtimes jux wan hide myself away from tis worldd.
Lyk i ever did.
Maybe jus not used to the life i am leadin nw.
All those stuffs runnin through my mindd.
If wan tok abt it, will have nv endin tokin abt it.
I envy my some of my frens.
Why can't i lead life the same way as they didd.
I dunno. Maybb it's jus tat i not usedd to life nw.
Perharps bahh. wells.
Shudn't i jus tink abt studyin instead of all tis.?
Yupp. jus need to study study study.
And keep all the craps aside.

I jus didn't noe how to express myself, feelings n so on.
It has always been hardd.
AHHH i dunno.
Perharps it's because it's onli the beginnin .
Where i took my first stepp.
Instead of still hidin backk 4ever.
Bein a turtle.. HAHA . PUI!

If onli i could dump everyting into the bin.
If onli onli i made right choices in lifee.
If onli i wasn't so dumb so useless.
Life wouldn't out liddat.
Wad's the use of regreting?complaining?blaming?
Totally no use.. = ) .

Anxious was my weakness.
It simply does.
If onli i could bringg myself to get angryy.
It's jus could be the onli way to clam myself.
Stop myself to be so gan chong.

If I had the letters H R and T..

I can either insert U to get HURT..

Or insert E AND A to get HEART.

But I would rather insert U to get HURT..

For what's a HEART for without U? :):)

interestin from fren blog.haha.

2005-08-31T12:45:00.000+08:00

Ppl lyk u always tink it's funny.
And jux cuz ppl dun speak up.
You tink they can be to push around.
Don't pushh mii to the limit.
If not i make sure u see ur face on the floor.
I won't hesitate.
Anyway u don't even have basic manners.
No wonder u are liddat.

Ppl who always said..
They are the best..
Are usually the useless ones..
Because those who are really..
Good won't speak a single word..
In fact they dun even show it out.

2005-08-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

stupid teacher?
if onli i nv sick.
Den got time study for test.
Stupid teacher nv said when give.
Den i nv study at all.
Got a fail for term 3 science.
Nvm juz have to study hard for end of year can le.

Tink no more.
Worry no more.
Mayb it's was all jux nonsense in mind.
Juz have to concentrate on studies nw.

2005-08-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINN!!

sorry i made u disappointed. sorry tat i am goin give u a belated present. i jux didn't how to make surprises n wasn't able to let ppl be happy. u mind tink it's was jux excuses bahh. nxt time dun hold high hopes in mii bahh. i dun wan u be disappointed. i noe it's not use saidin sorry. i noe wad u meant. maybe u had tink i nv bother muchh bahh.

I was juz daydreamin all these whiles.
i tot things were different.
But it didn't seem so.
Life is stil as rotten as ever.

nothing last forever right?
some day some times people will move on..
i have seen people changing, im sick of it...
to an extent i dun really trust my friends anymore...
im sick of being STABBED, being stated NOSY, wadeva it is.. i give up..

found tis on my frens profile.sumtimes i felt the same too.

Tryin change fate all tis while.
But guess i didn't success.
It's been long.
I really felt so tiredd.
No1 knew all tis craps were happenin.

Some1 told mi nv to give up.
I never did.
I did all i could.
To walk out of tis.
But it nv seems to work at all.
End of the day efforts were juz wasted always.

i am always doin things wrongly or in a wrong way.hais.

2005-08-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

The truth hurts?
Yahh it does.
Sumtings i dunno if shud said or not.?
I believe the person has a right to noe.
But sumtimes i jux kai bu liao kou.
And still keepin sumting liddat in mind so long?
Felt terrible n guilty wasn't it.
It's normal reaction i noe.

Many truths n facts in life..
But would able understand all..
I guess no1 would..

A golden heart is all takes in life..
Forgive n forget is all it takes..
Even if enemies were in front of mi..
Still my heart soften..
And i didn't did wad normal ppl would normally did..

Bein prefect being nice was wad we aim in life..
But it was jux hardd..
For some it's easier cuz by doin that..
They are bein themself..
But surely some would still said they were jux hypocrites..

The worse has yet to come..
I know sooner or later it's gotta happen..
I jux had to prepare myself gd enough..
So tat i will be able to take it..
Why is tis happenin?
Happenin to us..?
Maybe it was jux fated..
Who knows.
I guess noone knew the answers to it.

Hais. i know it's gotta happen n it will.
I noe no1 is goin to be able to stop tis from happenin.
But these days before it happen..
I still hope for a mircale to appear..
To stop tis tragic from happenin.

I pity the 1 n onli person who still does noes anyting.
Wonder how tis person will feel?
I bet tis person nv knew such a thing is happenin.
I bet tis person too nv knew it such a thing would happen.

Lies.
Serects.
Trust.
Abandon.

Hais.

2005-08-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

NO offence. hmm wad becomin of tis worldd?
Haha.. books were nv wrong abt tis point.
Human beings are always human beings.
There were jux too much misunderstandin in life..
Humans always tink they knew so muchh.
Tat's how misunderstandings arise yupp?
Humans always tink they could predict things.
But no they can't n when the truth is outt.
They will nv accept it.
One mistakes we humans always do is tat .
We often said we won't do tis won't do tat.
But the next ttime u noe, u are doin it.

Sometimes i really dun understand.
Perharps no1 would be able to find the answer to my doubts.

Those were nothing but words.
Use actions to prove things not words.

If u really don't bother.
Den u won't kept talkin abt it.

Don't judge everyting by it's cover.
Don't judge things by it's pastt.

There are no right or wrong to things.
It all depends on which angle u are viewin things at.

Simple ppl leads a simple life.
I guess tat's wad every1 wished for.
Cos u won't need to be worry abt anyting.

haiz bein prefect was jux hardd.
i can't be myself.

Perharps some facts in life might be cruel..
Tis are facts we totally can't deny at all.

It's sad to see tis kinda of tings.
But i am sure every1 is the same.

If i could i would lyk to live in fairytale..
instead of a world i am in nw.

2005-08-25T15:20:00.000+08:00

I watched tis show abt 1 week ago.
Tis show abt tis women who lost everyting she got.
It was all cause of a coin a man n she took it.
The coin brought bad luck to her.
But ltr the man taught her a way to change everyting.
She scrap off the apple skin in front of a minor at 12 midnite.
Wif the skin not broken at all .
Wif tat it made her dreams come true.
She went back to 3 days ago.
Everyting happen as usual but tis time she didn't pick the coin up.
She was glad cuz she noe she will not make those mistakes again.
Tis time she trust her husband.
But the endin, was totally the same as the last time.
She learnt a lesson from tis.

So wad if time could turn back..
So wad if i won't make those mistakes again..
I could change everyting..
But not the endin.
It was fated.

Best frens are ppl who dun despise u ..
Ppl who make u feel worthy of who u are ..
Ppl will stay wif u in term of gd or bad times ..

Best frens are not ppl who despise u of ur looks n appearances ..
Ppl who abandon u ..
Ppl who turn to limelights around dem as they are betta lookin than u ..
Ppl who took everyting for granted ..

This world was nv fair ..

2005-08-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

got tis from a frenz blog.

What is beauty? It is gone at old age.

An old man was saying this.
He was holding his old wife's hand and they were celebrating their 50th
year.
And he told his wife.. I love you.
The old man went on and advise all not to go for looks..
He said that love can never be based on looks..
Because looks are superficial and they don't give you guarantee for anything.
Your wife will put on weight after she gives birth..
Her super good figure will eventually be gone as she age..
Her super nice looking face will one day be filled with wrinkles.
How are you going to love her face when it becomes nothing?
What if one day she meets an accident? What if she got scarred?
What if the beauty was taken away overnight?
Can you still love her? Will your love for her still stand?
How are you going to love her when all you love is her beauty?
But inner beauty will always be there..
Even if one day her teeth falls.. her skin sags..
Even if one day her face no longer radiate beauty anymore..
She will still be beautiful and her beauty will always remain.
Because inner beauty can never be rob away from anyone..
And she who is beautiful at heart is beautiful. :)
He's really really very sweet.. His wife cried. =')

touchin wasn't it?
haha. if every1 were to be lyk tis man.
there will be no lonely souls aroundd in tis world.

life was jux always unfair..

every1 gotta to need to learn how to look at beauty..
to go beyond the superficial and the outside..
continue to believe..
The right one will one day appear when it's time! = )
There's no need to feel pressurize cause everyone's getting attached.
copy from fren blog! haha. but it's true doesn't it. yeaa.

If time could turn back..
To where i first started..
I will certainly not make..
Those mistakes again..
Lyk i once did..

2005-08-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

guess wadd it's beginnin of a new week liao so fastt.
I am really really shocked and appalled by time.
It's really zooming past without anyone noticing..
It's horrific! It's terrific! DAMN SCARY!!!!!!!!
Every week just go past me like nothing like that..
I'm really beginning to wonder if I want my life just lidat..
Every week just going pass without me finding meaning in it.
I should really stop and reflect on my life sometimes..

hmm i shudd not tink muchh abtt it anymoree.
perharps it's not important anymore. yup?
i have more important things to worry abt dun i..?
yeahh. so be it . who cares liaoo = ) .
i guess every1 has their own life bahhx.
i jux happen to not found miine yett.
i shudd really stop complainin tat much.
hmm ii hate to put up a actt, puttin up a maskk whenever i go.
i could jux simply be myselff. ignore wad others tinkk abt. = ) .

i found tis! ---> Why is it that.. it's easiest to hurt.. the closest ones to us?Don't you realise that.. you're most polite to strangers?
Yuup so damn true.

Love really fade over the years?
Is there really no eternal love?
I guess nobody will ever find the answer.

friendship without trust..
Is jux lyk a man without his hands n legs..

2005-08-21T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hmm. stayy at home whole day. yup yup. my dad told mii some of his pastt yeaa. so interestin. made mi wan to find out more abt wad happenn yeahh. hmm every1 has their own pastt they can't forget abt. i dunno whether if it was true but i trustt him = ) . ever through it might be a lit hardd to believe n ppl might tink lyk it's crazy? haha. tat's cuz they nv experience itt before. my dad also said tis. power leads to corruption in a man. wells it's true izzit.? hmm i am wonderin. if historyy will repeat itself. i hope nott. i jux love heardin stories. = )

__ simple mii. -

2005-08-20T09:39:00.000+08:00

hopefully i dun screw up my prelium and n lvl end of the yearr. hais. i afraidd. not doin as gd as wad i expect.? i certainly need to buck up. i scare tat wad i get for bein a slacker for 2years. hmm. gotta to need find motivation to do tings bahh. not stop bein lazyy.
i ignore to wad u ppl said does mean i scare of u. i jux choose to ignore. n didn't wan to do stupid tings to shut ur mouths. dun try mii. stay at hm whole dayy, lyin around whole dayy. did nothin muchh bahh. i can't wait 4 the hoildayys. there's so muchh i wan to do n feltt lyk doin. certainly, i need to do well for my end of year too if not hoildays come liao also no mood to do anyting le. ah hoildays. haha exams still not yet over i already tinkin of hoildayss. i have decided to take off the passwordd thingy. too ma fan bahh. cause so much troubles =)).

vannie : i love ur blog song!

__ SimplekIa - * wif simple life *

2005-08-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

[[ chocolate test ]]

Your choice of the centre of your chocolate
can
reveal your personality. Choose one before
you
scroll down to check the answer.

1)Almond
2)Coffee
3)Strawberry
4)Marshmallow
5)Peppermint
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Almond
Climbing the almond tree of prosperity, you
desire
success and you like to celebrate your achievements. You have a quickness of mind
that
can stagger your friends. You can change your conversation or your beliefs very rapidly. You love
making changes to yourself, because there are
so
many thoughts in your head. You like to offer a hand in friendship and are keen to help others.

Excess: You can appear flippant to people who
do
not know you. You have the best of intentions,
but
some people just don't want to be changed, so stop trying. You may rely on helping hands from others when you could do something yourself.

Coffee
As a coffee person, you're not one to be kept waiting or standing in line. You like everything
at
once, and why not? You are a deep thinker and like the buzz of discussion and debate. After all, this is why coffee and chocolate houses came
into
being. Your mind is like a parachute - it works
best
when open.

Excess: Living on a caffeine fix, nervous
energy,
prone to addictions. You can be impatient and throw tantrums when things don't go your way. You always look busy, but what are you
achieving?

Strawberry
You're a loving and caring person. In touch with your intuition, you listen to other people's problems
with compassion and tenderness. You have or
will
find time for people and you believe that things
will
turn out all right in the end. A romantic and an idealist at heart, you have lots of unconditional love
for yourself and for others. Music can play a
large
part in your life.

Excess: Disappointments in love not being returned. Sensitivity to others can leave you drained of energy. The need to love at any cost means you can be living through others, seeing
the
world through rose-coloured glasses.

Marshmallow
As a person who likes marshmallow, you're
very
social. You like to party, to have people around you. Light and fluffy, you can move from one idea
or subject to the next, without a great deal of though. If you choose pink marshmallow, you're
in
love with romantic and very optimistic. White marshmallow denotes clarity for that moment in time.

Excess: You can get bored very quickly. Tend
to
agree with whomever you are talking to at the
time,
no matter what you believe in. Not a lot of
follow-
through on ideas that you come up with. The
need
for romance, for clarity.

Peppermint
All things are possible to peppermint lovers;
you
have all the scope of life to choose from. You
tend
to see life as moving on - tomorrow is another
day.
You're very clear on what you're doing,
whether it
be in mattes of the heart of in your profession. You're full of ideas and won't be bound by rules unless you've made them. You're always
striving
for things to be better, looking ahead with an
open
mind.

Excess: The need for all the above. Being able
to
let go and trust your inner center. Suffering
from
the past is clouding your judgment of the here
and
now.

wad's ur..?
haha i choose mine n it's so true abt mii.

__silentt.

2005-08-18T18:04:00.000+08:00

Ehh. boredd dayy..? killin my time at skool. Ahh. i forgotten sum of the things tat i wan to putt on my blogg. the profile section. nvm, shall write wadever i tink of nw. jux in case of stm.Hmm i guess sometings are meant to be leftt to rott..? mayb bahh. yeaa, sum tings are also jux wastin ur effortt . waste ur effort workin hardd for it. worrk hardd won't pay off anyway. anyway tis blog might jux be for a time bein. cuz i tink if i get my com liaoz. i gotta change everyting . thankss lizz n miss.shortt. for the help of my blogg. i jux learnin how to blog . i learnt alot. oh yahh i need advice from u ppl, for the entries of my blogg. wad colours shud i put.? sorry for the inconvence cause cuz i changed my url. i set up a password cuz lyk now lyk liu xing . =)). so i follow. lols.

__sil3ntt. -

2005-08-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

slackerr mi..? hais. jux time to get serious bahh. if not , i will not be able to achive wad i wan yeaa. jux slackin too muchh. damnn. skool gettin boredd. need to buck up for everyting bahh.

Twiin, cheer upp k..? dun tinkk too mucch liaoo .

__slientt.

2005-08-16T16:38:00.000+08:00

i certainly need buck on my studiess. i jux couldd not concentrate on itt. but i wouldd tryy. try hardder. i gotta change my bloggskin soon. i gotta learn everyting myself =)). edit everyting to the bestt i couldd. hopefully it wouldd turn outt gdd yeaa. cuz i learning. firstz time? yeaa. it might jux be a standd by 1.

__IaMAfraID.

2005-08-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

i am prepare for the worstt. hopefully my mum is lyin to mi tis time again. ahh papa take caree. poor u. i amm feelin lykk the whole worldd gotta fall on mii. ahhh. my thoughts runnin wildd these dayys. i feltt differentt. ahh i couldd simply jux forget the idea of gettin a com.

__ slient.

2005-08-14T03:47:00.000+08:00

Gemini (Twins)

Born May 21 - June 20

Eternally childish - both intellectually and emotionally, a Gemini simply refuses to grow up, and will often mooch of off someone until old age.

His only true passion is pointless chatter, which he has mastered to perfection. A Gemini can talk for hours without ever getting to the point.

He reads little, but has an opinion on every issue - even though he will change it about a dozen times a week. It is not uncommon for a Gemini to become an actor or at least a "writer".

Geminis can't stand stress - neither physical nor mental.

Even though a Taurus loves to entertain guests, at best, he will have nothing more to offer than soda and chips. Usually though, it's just his endless and pointless ramblings.

__ Day DrEamEr kIa *was here early mornin 3.30am * bloggin completed . -

2005-08-14T03:16:00.000+08:00

guess wadDD!?!? it's nw 3.16am in the morning!! n i am still awakee =DD ahhh jux can't fall aslp. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVIL PRINCESS N may all ur wishes come trueE!! =)). jux finish watchin a touchin love storyy from channel 8 yeaa. ahh jux so touchin damnn. >.<~ the power of lovee jux so greatt yeaa. Ahhh. i tinkin nonsense agaain ahh stop mann. tis show made mi tot of sumting yeaa. i guess not everyone is easily touchedd yeaa. n not certain is filledd wif QING. ahh i am crazy. hw could i ever cross my mind tatt a gall lyk her will be able to replace tat gan mei of mine -." . u could saidd i am stupidd n dumbb. butt, i jux enjoy grantting wishes of otherss =x. ppl happy n i am too. too badd. ppl dun appreciate. lykk i saidd. not every1 is easily touchhed. not every1 noes wad is QING . who ever understand how i felt. =// . Ahhh. i tinkin of nonsense agaiinn. sum1 *kok kok* moi headd pls >.<~! wake mii upP. so boredd n made mi bloggedd so many crapps. i am soo hungrry !

__ Day DrEamEr kIa *was here early mornin 3.30am * bloggin completed . -

2005-08-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Ahhh. pan wei bo - bu de bu ai. so nicE. bth. damnn. i can't seemm to stopp my mindd from tinkin nonsense. wells. s0me1 st0p it plss. >.<~!!. wells. noe wadd.? i so jeallouss. so envy of my frenz. my pastt frenz. we usedd to be have so muchh in common yeaa. but look at u all nw. lookin greatt, happy n mostt of all, sweett, superr wonderrfull lifee.compare to mi , i still strugglin . ahhh, i wonderr how u guys did itt?!?!?! hw u guys manage changee everytingg in ur lifee to liddatt? i guess not manyy couldd be ablee to do. any tipss.? i too wan to be lyk u guys! >.<.

__ EnDl35stEaRs -

2005-08-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

Chinese prelim exam today! i tink alright bahh. shud be able to fair well =)). aHHhh! Dad takE carE n gEt wELL =]] hopee it's alrightt.

__ EnDl35stEaRs -

2005-08-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

i have recover! =DD ahhh feel gd mann. everyting backk was lyk totally nightmare to mii. i nv wan to go through tat ever again. it's scarryy but i learnt from sumting useful which will carry wif mi the rest of my life. =)) . ohx yahx. i wan thanks my mum for takin care of mii . thanks alot! love my mum to bits! thanks passerby! i am touchhedd. wells. gotta go study for tml chinese exam le. ohx yahx stupid science teacher gave mii the testt todayy. i tink gotta fail lorhh. hmm nvm ii will work hardd for my exams!. hmm ohx yahx. lastly, dad take care n get well soon =]]! i hope no more things gotta happenn. it has been wild ride. it's enoughh. shudd stop liaoo.

__ EnDl35stEaRs -

2005-08-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

happy national day!! =) . it had jux been totally scarryy . tis few dayss. feeling weak all over n tiredd. can u imagine tat i kept slpin n slpin. i didn't wan to . totally out of control. i wan to study for exams but couldn't do itt. i was jux feeling the same all the time. horrible horrible. tiredd n wantin to slp. i jux hope . hopefully tml will jux fine for mi. if not i will not imagine how i goin through exams wif a condition liddat.

__ it's been a nightmare for mii . -

2005-08-07T15:26:00.000+08:00

guess wadd exams are comin n i not started studyin. i wan to . but still i feelin tiredd n weak all overr. n guess wadd i was in bed for the whole dayy . i worry. worry abt my exams. thanks miss.shortty. i told her i was in bedd whole day n no1 call or even sms mi n straight away she send mi 1 msg. kind of her! n she even send mi a song to cheer mi up . thanks alot miss.shortty.! i felt betta =]] .

__ x I a O n i C -

2005-08-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

my dad shifted mmy position of my bed n everyting. he said mayb bad luckk cuz my position wasn't bad n was always wakin up in the nitee . n cuz many things happen. he told mii dun care nice anot liaoo. my health was more importantt . i feelin weak all overr. lyk a straw man ready to be blown away. hais. hope everyting get betta . hopefully it's cuz of the medicine or i am sick.

__ x I a O n i C -

2005-08-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

Ehhh. wentt for bb trainin today. my performance was lyk so lan. couldn't run for long, i had no strength too n my hands was lyk shiverin i also didn't noe y. left earlier to wentt home rest yeaa. nvm. i will work harder next time . i will wait until the exams are over.

__ x I a O n i C -

2005-08-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

EHh in end still end up visitin the doc >.<. didn't wentt to skool today as my fever was highh n i felt weak all overr. sians dunno when takin the common test againn so ma fan. fever on n off . hope i will alright by tml. pastt few days had been too busy bahx until didn't take care of myself >.< . btw thks twin , jl n shell . thks alot! it was of u guys. =) . i am gladd eeveryting was overr. hopes it doesn't happen again.

__ x I a O n i C -

2005-08-01T15:36:00.000+08:00

i goin crazy. goin mad. i scare of myself endin up lyk my dad did. so scaryy. no1 would have imagine wad is it to feel to be lyk. haiz. everyting changes. fast or slow tat's all . hope all tis craps would jux endd. it's enoughh. it's lyk i had been knock outt alreadyy. it's been years. yett sumtings didn't change. sum tings i hope it would change but it nv didd. n sumtings i hope they would stay 4ever but it nv did. i onli noe 1 thing. i am wore outt. totally knock outt. i noe there's more to come. haiz.

__ siGhz -

2005-07-31T11:37:00.000+08:00

sick again . cum injuredd yea. ahh so bored. din't feltt lyk doin much expect for lyin in bed . so wore outt too yup yup. still least i tink i have to complete my chem homework bahx. refrigerator cum my spec spoil.wth. wad esle could go wrong?? hais.

TO : THE PERSON WHO PRANK CALL. WU JI COME FACE TO FACE TELL MI TAT. WO DANG NI .

__ x I a O n i C -

2005-07-30T11:18:00.000+08:00

Happy bday to lizz. n hope all her wishes come truee. =]]. until today did i realised tat a simple accident has cause it all. i was tinkin. tinkin hard to give up not. i tot it was the end of it. but it wasn't. all i ever asked was juz a small request wasn't it. yett world is so curel. is it really so hardd. y was it. if onli things could turn out betta for juz once lyk ever before. it would be enough. jux once . all tis problems jux happen 1 after another yeaa. non stop .. even when 1 have not even been settle, there came another. nw i can see wad happens next yeaa.? it was jux all horrible.

__ xIaObEndaN -

2005-07-29T11:39:00.000+08:00

jux can't get tis out of my mindd. not until things changes. jux can't get hold it anymore . fearr is all i hadd. i felt weird . today wentt skool n dora n her "GANG" LLOL at there diao mi . btw i am not the shortest there cann. -." u need a pairs of glasses =//. sianz. sprain slightly yeaa . daO. how careless was i .

__PrInCEbOiBoI .

2005-07-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

Today is audrey's birthday!!. happy birthdayy!!. may all ur wishes come truee yeaa. n gd luck for ur comin exams. also, got time remember to meet up k. long time no see le . = ). oHx. i got new partner. shorrty partner DORA =DD. she always claim she taller den mii. daO . i am sure i am taller lorh. =]]. n u wad. i tink she looks lyk a pigg larhh. she got a nose lyk the pigg nose cann . =PpPP . well it's not bad be a pigg = ) . u can consider . tat incidentt was juz clingin wif mi all the time yeaa. i couldn't forget. but i will try to overcome itt. hopefully i able to. it's hardd. hopefully able to get back wad i lostt.

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2005-07-25T06:14:00.000+08:00

my feelings for everything seems to be faded liaox. hmm it seems tat i have changed . i lyk not mine normal self yeaa. nw i seem to have nth much to tok wif frenz, dunno to how console ppl anymore yeaa. tat's jux unlyk mi cann. everyting is so diff. beginnin to feel nothing liao yeaa . no1 will ever imagine tat all tis happen huhh. cuz u were the ones. trust mii i will make it the last time. no more. i dun wan ppl to suffer all tis cuz of mii . it was enough. everyting is tearin apartt from wad i cann see. i felt so guilty . i am sorry. i had no choice butt take tis decision n put it to stopp yeaa even it's gotta cost everyting. haiss.

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2005-07-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday cheryl =). may all ur wishes come true n gd luck for ur o lvl yeaa. jiayou arhx. =). all the best. hmm wentt to help ck at his new hse. tatt's all. hmm ckpy. took long long while to shake u off my mind yeaa. i still tink u are great gall yeaa. hope u had a great birthday . tC~. =P.

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2005-07-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

ahh. hate life liddat k. i am tiredd n sick of tis can. i am tiredd , lazy n dun feel lyk talking backk. kinda of stuffs yeaa. it's bored. it's meangless. well at least to mi it was. cuz was experencin tis since long before. no1 could win mi i mean lyk the pastt. ahh. life's bored. =^^_. i need a restt. haiss.

__ l0v3l35s . i miss lots of things. i do. i really do. >>.<~~!

2005-07-20T18:05:00.000+08:00

well. poa. acutally already did it ritee wad. ahh wth y did i went to change itt. aww. was onli tell u ritee. dun u have to show ur temper out lidddat wad. bitcch. ahh wad's tis . stupid thingy on my backk. so er xinn. wadd ups huhh. tml will be my chinese oral yeaa? >.< year ="D">

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2005-07-18T15:04:00.000+08:00

alamak headache still on. hope it get betta. bad weather these few days yup yupp. tml geograhpy test. gotta need to be studyin for it ltr. hmm tis few days getting fatter le arhx >.<.

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2005-07-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

shud not have drank last nite yeaa. caught fever after tat .luckily it's over nw =) had no more to tink of.been so bored. still having slight headache. i wonder wad will i do a day without music. so boredd. feeling so free yeaa.dun have to tink no more. =]] . ohx no . my fever is comin on n off. tis terrible shiverin arhX! >.<. damniit so many days liao. fever fever go away n nv come backk - >.< .

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2005-07-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

i guess i shud't tink too much anymore. it's was fated. n so be it. i will have no choice but to jux let nature take it's place yeaa.? all i hope i won't once again fall in tis well.

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2005-07-15T19:00:00.000+08:00

haiss. on the bad luck path yeaa. so things happen ever since skool started. n now i am sickk. damnit yeaa. jux hope things turn out for the better bahx. exams comingg. so scare i not gotta make itt. * prays *

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2005-07-13T14:24:00.000+08:00

i am tiredd . really tired larh. i need a rest. need to rest badly. can't tink of anymore things. wissh i could stay my dreams 4ever n get away far away from tis fuked life. it lyk fukking messy up. i am sick everyting repeating again n again. i jux wanted slient. total slient. .

ah fuk the stomach pain. it's killing mii. felt lyk bangin my head to the wall. fuk it. aircon down too. how bad can my day get. hais. the pain it killing mi.

2005-07-11T15:05:00.000+08:00

sorry twiin forget to wake u up yeaa. getting very forgetful nowsdays. =/ . today is sharon birthday!! happy birthday arhx!! may all ur wishes come ture =) . hmm wentt for dentist check up n skip for a few lessons yeaa. so shuanng arh. they said i nv brush teeth. daoo i got lor. maybe juz brush the wrong way bahx. damnit larh. i need to ask my mum proper way le. dun wan next time again liddat. >.<~ skipped lunch n went home cooked maggie! did homework n had a nap. ahh soo tiredd. =/ .
if i were have choice , i would choose to stay in my dreams 4ever . where things always goes the way i wan dem too. =[

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2005-07-10T13:30:00.000+08:00

hmm bad day. i screw up tottally . n i understand the value of wateer. updating more soon. i out of words. wennt to for breakfast wif twin n jl. hmm i been wondering if tat's wad it take to be prefect, y would ppl still wan to go for it. i askedd myself too. if it's wasn't worth it. y still go for it yeaa. i dunno it myselff. jux felt lyk doin it tis way. if everyting were to be arrange nicely for mii . it would be jux greatt. i dunn have to worry. no worries. no more thoughts. i wonderr. jux wonderinG. ._. stuff myself wif alots of junk food recently . becoming lyk a junk too le >.< .

__ x I a O n i C - i couldd tink no more

2005-07-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

Hmmm wentt to pei cf n ck go eat lunch. after went ppool wif que qiang. den wentt to meet up wif my pri skool mates. den went for dinner. $10.90 for a spagetti larh. soo not worrth but nvm its okayy dun wan spoil their mood. =D . after went to jessica block the playground there . tok tok wif pri skool mates. after tat we all went home. aHhh. so happy yeaa. been long time ever since i was all of u =). had a great time. =]]

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2005-07-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

was latee for skool today huhh. n played so call catchin wif the prefects. today test was lyk went casee lahz. got study also lyk no use arhx.haiss. 2nd time to redo the test muz work harder le. hmmm suddenly juz tot of u yeaa. >.<~ missin u mel. went soccer aafter llx was done for his oral. after tat. wenttt dinner n went home. hmm mel!! at last u are online. glad to see 3 of my jies online !! had a great time chatting wif u all yea. missing u all !i beginnin to feel betta =P. ahhh. lastlyy. twiin cheer up! dun sadd le. u noe u did well n did ur best can le k. jux concentrate on ur studies nw. =)

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2005-07-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

ehhH. today science lessson was so ffunn larh. have alots of fun. after tat stayy backk at skool to waitt for chad n jon to finish their orall den after tat went homE bahx. hmm didn't feel so righht tis few dayss yeaa. haiss dunno wad's happenin lahz. suddenly so easy work up n irrtated larh.haiss. my backk is achin>.<~ dunno why. guess my back problem is occuring again le bahx. . tml got physics tEst . gotTa study hard for it. hope i do well in it. lastly sorry twiin. forget to wiish u gd luck.

__x I a O n i C - * miss u jies *

2005-07-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm today got caught for hair colourr. sians arhz. stupid miss bok larh. it's actually bo tai ji de lahz. hmm quek dye back for mi larh. got so dirtty n stinky lahz. summore is juz after pe. got oral. i tink it's okayy bahz. juz abit anxious at start den read wrongly abit. hmm the teachers from other skool caught mi for long hair . haiss. hairr again. den went to cut it after tat lor. nw my hair is lyk becoming bad to worsee larh. itss so smelly too. totally bullshit larh. totally horrible weekk again. hais. jies! i miss u . >.<~.

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2005-07-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

wennt to airport to sent off dinah n ai shan. took a 1 n half hr trip to get to airport. meet my jies n was very happy. we gave ai shan n dinah they tings prepare for dem n they went to check in. after tat we went mac to chit - chat . after tat wen sendin dem off , all of us were so upset larh. when all of u hug ai shan n dinah, i so jealous larh. can't get to hug >.<. haiss. miss u both alot!! >.< . takE carE arhx. n do come back early to visit us.
Ai shan n dinah : saw u two lyk wasn't tat happy wif mi larh. mayb u tot i didn't care bahz. i dunno. but i do care.juz didn't noe how to express my feelings yeaa.? haiss. + the rest mayb they also tot how cum i wasn't even sad when u both left yea..? yes i was sadd. juz tat i didn't express it out yeaa. i dun wan to be crying lyk in front of u ppl larh. so paiseh lor. hmm tat's all bahz. juz wan said i miss u both ! hOpe u come back to visit us soon yeaa.u all my lucky charm lorh! after meetin u all arhh! my fone vibration went workin again lor. =D. thanks guys.! damn.! havin headache . haiss. tml havin n lvl oral larh. sians! i dun tink i gotta do well in it larh.wishhmigdluckk.=

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2005-07-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

I am so tiredd. went to funa it mall today. looking for a laptop tat is suitable for mi. but found none. so disppointedd yea. i tink gotta ask my cousin help mi bahz. hmmm after tat went to j8 meet up wif cf n the gang. den went soccer. had a great time yeaa. hmm i hate tml. how wish tml nv come larx. my jies leavin. haiss. gotta miss dem to bits. tml is zhen birthdayy . wish all her dreams come wishh bahz.

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2005-07-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

885566, i miss u guys! haiss. 2 more days n sum of u are gotta leave us.=(( i can't bear to let u ppl go. i so afraid, so fearful, 1 day i might lose all my loves 1 . hopefully u ppl will come back as soon as u can. had a stupid cut hair. it succk sumtimes, wish i was a tortoise. so tat i ccould hide in my shell n have a world of my own. didn't even have the need to bother abt any other tings.

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2005-07-03T11:05:00.000+08:00

Hmmm tis the firstz time i bloggin yeaa.my frenz help mi wif all tis designs. thanks jiayan. thanks alot.
Tis the the firstz week of skool huhh. yet so much things are happenin around lor. haiss. dunno wad to do lahz. kym u are right bahz. it's a test of who are my true frenz yeaa. nw tat i noe the truth . it hurtts. haiz. maybe. maybe juz need some time to get over all tis n decide wad i shud to do lahz. nw, i tink all the hopes n confidence i had before. it jux suckk.

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